These Times

Well, tonight's post is going to be themed. I turned my iPod on while on my way home from work tonight, and this song came on. I've heard it countless times, and know the words by heart. But I actually paid attention to the meaning behind the words this time, and I can't help but realize how much it relates to my life right now. Here is a link to the video and the lyrics:

"These Times"
By Safetysuit

These times will try hard to define me
And I’ll try to hold my head up high
But I’ve seen despair here from the inside
And it’s got a one track mind

And I have this feeling in my gut now
And I don’t know what it is I’ll find
Does anybody ever feel like
You’re always one step behind

Now I’m sitting alone here in my bed
I’m waiting for an answer I don’t know that I’ll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I’m failing
I’m telling you these times are hard
But they will

And I know there’s someone out there somewhere
Who has it much worse than I do
But I have a dream inside, a perfect life
I’d give anything just to work
It’s like I’m only trying to dig my way out
Of all these things I can’t

And I am sitting alone here in my bed
I’m waiting for an answer I don’t know that I’ll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I’m failing
I’m telling you these times are hard
But they will pass
They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will

These times will try hard to define me
But I will hold my head up high

Sitting alone here in my bed
I’m waiting for an answer I don’t know that I’ll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I’m failing
I’m telling you these times are hard
But they will pass

And I know there’s a reason
I just keep hoping it won’t be long ’til I see it
And maybe if we throw up our hands and believe it
I’m telling you these times are hard
But they will pass
They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will pass

The whole song really helps me put to words how I've been feeling lately, especially when they talk about despair having a one track mind, and having a feeling without knowing what you'll find when you look within. I've really felt like that because of my self-reflections...I really don't know what I'll find, and it kind of scares me. But the last verse/refrain is where it really motivated me...it's time to just give in to the flow of life and see what develops.

Here's to not dwelling on the what if's and just making the decision and following through with it!