When did this happen?!

So I was out to dinner today with a good friend and I started to realize how emotionally dependent I've become. When did I start being this way? Have I always been this way? I honestly don't know. I feel like I am permanently in this place of time. I don't feel I've moved forward. Actually, I feel like I've moved backwards. I don't know when I became so needy. I'd like to think that I am independent, and on my own, but the fact is...I am completely dependent upon other people. Whether it is financially or personally. I don't really make my own decisions anymore, and I definitely don't do what I want anymore. Granted, if I really DON'T want to do something, I won't. But I'll go along with what others want because it is easier than making my own decision about it. I think I need to work on this a little. When did I start caring so much about what others think of me? I used to pride myself on the fact that I didn't care. Now I find myself changing myself to be what everyone else wants me to be. So who am I really?! I don't know. Maybe this is something I can figure out through this self reflection of a blog. I don't really have anything else on my mind. I just wanted to throw that out there. Hope everyone has a great Memorial Day weekend!