Whatever You're Doing

So have you ever had one of those moments where everything just comes together and it seems so clear to you? I had one of these moments today. It's funny how easy it is to forget something that you've been so sure of most of your life. Well, today I relearned something that I can't believe I forgot! In order to understand this fully, I'll have to tell you some background. I have been struggling with my faith for a long time now, and I keep trying to figure out what I need to do to get a hold of it again. I have been living in fear. Fear that I've rejected God, fear that I've let Satan into my life, fear that I'm never going to be good enough. I've just been giving in to my sinful self a little too much lately. Well, today it all hit me at one moment, I don't need to do anything except allow God to work in my life. And Satan can't enter my life with God standing next to me. I had forgotten that. The thing that caused this revelation came in the form of a song. I was listening to the Christian radio station here both on the way to and on the way home from work. This morning, Switchfoot's "Your Love Is A Song" came on and being one of my favorite bands, their music almost always speaks to me and inspires me. But it really hit me when I was driving home after 6 straight days of working (and I was really crabby)...when Sanctus Real's "Whatever You're Doing" came on. I absolutely love this song, and it is going to be my new motivation song. It's an older song, and I've listened to it over 100 times, it's funny how something familiar can affect you so strongly. It really hit me hard because I feel like I've been stuck in this one part of my life, refusing to move on. I want to, but I'm scared to. This song talks about healing and moving on, finding a new beginning and figuring out who you are. But I can't even begin to know how to do that without God's guidance. He alone knows what is in store for my life, and I need to start trusting him again. I have a lot of trust issues. Especially with trusting in God's plan. He clearly wanted my mom to be with him, but I just couldn't seem to see how I could go on with my life without needing her. I've been so afraid that moving on meant that I would forget her. I know that seems silly since I still have most of my life's worth of memories with her, but I've already started forgetting things about her. I can't hear her voice anymore, and I can't picture her face without looking at a photo. I've spent so much time defining who I am because of her, and this song is saying it's time to move on and figure out who I am on my own.

So I think God has led me to another personal discovery. I've been trying to focus on my faith a lot lately and I have been doing a lot of personal reflection. I believe God works in mysterious ways, he is always sending messages and answering prayers, we just need to keep our eyes and ears open for them!

Here are the lyrics to both songs...

Switchfoot-Your Love Is A Song

I hear you breathing in
Another day begins
The stars are falling out
My dreams are fading now, fading out

I've been keeping my eyes wide open
I've been keeping my eyes wide open

Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running through me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, running to me

Oh, your love is a song

The dawn is fire bright
Against the city lights
The clouds are glowing now
The moon is blacking out, is blacking out

So I've been keeping my mind wide open
I've been keeping my mind wide open, yeah

Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running to me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, and into me

Oh, your love is a song
Your love is a song
Oh, your love is a song
Your love is strong

With my eyes wide open
I've got my eyes wide open
I've been keeping my hopes unbroken
Yeah, yeah

Ooh, your love is a symphony
All around me, running through me
Ooh, your love is a melody
Underneath me, running to me

Your love is a song
Yeah, yeah
Your love is my remedy
Oh, your love is a song

Sanctus Real-Whatever You're Doing

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly
Something Heavenly*

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out



That's all I have for today. I'll try to get something up a little bit quicker this next time! It might be difficult since I'm starting classes this next week, but I'm gonna try to start posting on a regular basis!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Labor Day weekend!