Leave it to God

So as I've mentioned in an earlier post, I've decided to start refocusing my faith and getting back to having Christ as my center. Well, I've recently decided that I don't really give my problems or situations to God. I just go about it the way I think I should. Now, how exactly do you give yourself to God? I've struggled with this, because I've said prayers, and I've read devotionals...but what is it really that you need to do? How do you "Leave it to God"? I guess this is how I always used to interpret it: you can say prayers and ask God to do what you want to happen. OR you can pray and let the situation be and if it was "meant to be" it was "meant to be". But now I'm not so sure. God gave us free will. So we are able to make our own decisions about things. With that being said, I now believe that if we ask God to guide us toward the right decision, that can also be considered "leaving it to God". I just have so many "up-in-the-air" situations that I don't know what to do! Where do I go to school? What major should I choose? Am I ready for a emotional relationship? Am I ready for change? There is so much that I am unsure of...how do I leave it to God?!

I hate to make titles, cause I never know what to put... :)

I have a few things on my mind today, and I need to let it out!

First, CLEARANCE SALES! I love to browse clearance racks...and this is the best time to do it since all of the summer clothes and products are getting marked down to blow-out prices! I went to both Target and Kohl's today and there are some awesome deals going on! My only issue is that I have no money for this right now, so I suppose I'll have to wait another week. Hopefully there will still be some great deals then!

Secondly, I have a boy issue. Haha...well, more like I have the issue. I have a big crush on this guy who is a vendor at my work, but I never know what to say when he comes in! It's always the same routine, "Hi, how're you doing?" "Hey, I'm doing good. How about you?" "I'm good." We both go about our business, and then it always ends with "Have a nice day!" "Thanks, you too." I, for the life of me, cannot seem to get past the polite hello's! I get so nervous, and almost run away from him when he comes in. Well, I had off of work today (the first Tuesday in a long time) and that's when he usually comes in. So a couple of my friends told me I should just stop by and maybe with me not on the clock we'd chat a little bit more. So I do this, I dress nicely and make sure my hair isn't a frizz ball like usual, and go to work. With my luck, it isn't him today! It was someone else who came in and did his usual job...now I have to wait until next week to see if this change is permanent or not. I hope not, because I was just starting to talk to him! Also, I need help figuring out how to move the conversation past the hello/goodbyes.

I guess those are the two major things for today. It was kinda a superficial post today. But hopefully I can report back soon on more of my thoughts....

Talk to you soon! :)